Wednesday, October 29, 2008

New day again.. been awhile?

I'm convincing myself to be super positive. Ever since I left my "safety net" or back-up plan called banking over a year ago... (which some of you can go back to that original post last year...)

I have had such a positive and scary experience all at once. It feels sort of like the end of the begining, if that makes any sense at all?

A quick background on me....(for those who don't want to have to go back through the archive).

I put myself through college working in banking.. always considered that my back up, but had much loftier goals than that. Most of it was about having an impact on a lot of people.. through a campaign that I believed in, or some miracle company I was going to dream up. Who knows. I had no idea. I did get on the right track and landed an AMAZING internship.. and later job in the House of Commons, Parliament UK. This was after the war had started, though, and our American dollar was really suffering in London. On a starving post grad student's salary.. and sometimes NO salary, I could no longer afford my blissful lifestyle in London : (A pretty good job offer landed in my lap back in Portland.. and that's where the real fun/chaoticness started. After a whirlwind romance with a charming hawaiian looking surfer boy, ended up with me crying the day of my Buddhist/Cambodian wedding, whilist 4 months pregnant, I thought to myself.. THIS IS NOT WHERE I was headed a year ago!!! What happened to me?!

Ahh, but I made a valiant effort, even tied myself down to a mortgage... only to realize after a "hi-five" to my surfing "buddhist hubbie" (although we never made it legal) that we were done playing house... financially it was crushing to separate, but for the emotional and mental well being of the 3 of us we knew it was the wisest decision. 2 years later, we are great friends, that co-parent as a team with common goals, a HAPPY, loving, disciplined and beautiful little 4 year old. I look at her in awe everyday over her resiliance, capabilities, innocence and beauty of a half asian/irish wee one.

So here I am today... Going back for my Master's of Urban Planning, with an emphasis in either energy or real estate development. I am amidst trying to launch another company with brilliant partners (doctor, NIKE/Intel software developers, and a advisor who worked on the Russian Missile crisis negotiations during the Regan administration, and has founded or advised other companies listed on NYSE).I am nothing but excited over the experience... My master's will relate to my new company's endeavors- but ofcourse will serve as a back up plan once again, in case I need to actually get a day job again.

Until then... I am working like everyone else on here, for multiple sources of income and looking past just Financial Stability (which MUST occur sooner than later!) in order for my "cup runeth over" I feel like I can be the best advocate, leader, listener, motivater, friend, business partner, family member, mother when I have more than enough to share with and inspire others...

Feel free to contact me with any tips or your own experience! I am really looking forward to my new path... one that I've been eyeing and dancing around for awhile, attempting to walk down.. but jumping off here and there, out of fear. This time I'm staying and I'm sure it'll be worth it.

1 comment:

brataloid said...

I can relate to this post as well. I've always known that I wanted to be a writer, but I walked away from it thinking I wasn't good enough, but I'm back now and ready to give it a go. It's exciting and scary, but I hope to be able to make a living at it one day.